I honestly don’t know how to start out this post. I’ve had something witty and funny typed out plenty of times, but then I just erase it. I don’t know why, honestly. Honestly is one of my favorite words, well the root of the word is. Here I sit, in front of my computer screen, at 2:14 am drinking a Dr. Pepper (I have a serious problem) and typing up this post. Why? Beats me. I have a busy day tomorrow and I just want to type, just anything that comes to mind. What is sleep? I’ve actually been getting too much of it, so when I have to drag myself out of bed at 9am tomorrow morning, maybe I’ll regret this, but as for now, I’m a happy camper.
I’ve learned so many life lessons this past school year. It was a nice wake up call. I have one year left. One year. I didn’t believe time flew by so fast until now. My life hasn’t even begun yet. I trapped in a state I don’t want to be in (sorry mom) and I’m just starting to explore what all my degree has to offer me. Starting on Monday, I’ll be a starting an internship program at UT Southwestern in Dallas. I’m so excited. I was actually ugly crying happy tears the second I found out yelling, “ OMG!!! OH my GOSH!!! IS THIS REAL LIFE???” (ya know, typical sorority girl reaction to anything super exciting). So you’re probably thinking, “What does that even mean?” I’m working in a neuroscience lab. I’ll have my own project. Yes, it’s a big deal. No, I don’t know what my project is quite yet. I’m just so excited you guys. Sunday night I’m going to be as excited as a little kid who gets to wake up the next morning to go play in the park with all the cute puppies and kitties.
So why won’t anybody listen to me? Now you’re probably like, “woah what a plot twist”. I’m being serious. If you didn’t like that statement you’re more than welcome to stop reading. Nobody is making you read this and I’ve honestly just learned to let a lot of things go. I feel like I’m full of some pretty great ideas. I miss photography a lot (ur welcome daddy). It’ll always be a part of me. The problem is I either don’t have people to help me out with these ideas or I just simply don’t have the time. If you’re interesting in just seeing some of my work, let me know. I know starting Monday I probably won’t have much of social life but that’s okay. It’s going to be so worth it. I don’t know where I was going with this….ugh. Sorry.
I’ve decided to take a break from my “intense” pre-med life and enjoy my twenties. I’m only 21. A wise friend of mine has told me that I should slow down and I agree with them. I have my whole life ahead of me. You’re probably wondering what I mean by a break. Believe it. By break I mean I’m going to get my Master’s Degree and probably in Public Health (epidemiology and biostats just sound super interesting). I mean nothing is set in stone or anything, but I think I would really enjoy it. It’s a fresh start, especially for my GPA (not that it’s awful but I’m weird about my grades). Junior year is always a rough year. I’ll get to explore more into this field before I fully decide I want to go medical school. Going to medical school has been a dream of mine for almost 8 years now. I don’t think that’s going to change. I’m a realist, though. I’m not super optimistic and can be extremely pessimistic at times, but my gut feelings are always right. Expect the worst and prepare for the best, right? Sure. My gut is telling me to travel. Go out of the state for graduate school. Yeah it’s probably going to cost an arm and a leg and I’ll probably be in debt forever, but I need to start being a happier person in general. My university has done great things for me, don’t get me wrong. It’s given me such great friends and sisters. I’ve found myself. It’s just time I start a new chapter (well, when I graduate).
This post was really short and thank you for reading this even though I’m sure there are a million typos but #yolo. I’ll hopefully be posting more this summer with all of my super fun aka super nerdy adventures. Happy Summer!
